if the sun refused to shine, i dont mind. ★

Fri, 30 Apr 2004 20:04:42 GMT

something just reminded me of about this time last year.or maybe it was in september?. my supposed "Best friend" was spreading the most horrible rumors about me.. and everybody belived them. i hated 8th grade. because she thought she was cool i guess. but this year everybody hates her they all think she looks like e.t. i guess the jokes on her ..? whatever makes you think youre cool , i guess.. but i reazlied she was never really my friend. and i absolutely fucking HATE her. all she ever did was talk shit & lie her way out of situations, she thought that it got her out of them, but it only put her farther in them.. yeah you know who you are. dont even fucking comment.youre so obnoxious...you cant face the truth.

im so glad its finally the fucking weekend. and its my moms. hell yes.<33 _82ndstreet
im going to still write in here until alot more people put me on thier friends list.

Fri, 30 Apr 2004 17:19:18 GMT

_82ndstreet
my new livejournal.

Thu, 29 Apr 2004 21:09:01 GMT

new livejournal name.
_82ndstreet
add if you wanna..
im going to write in the other one.
i hate this name <33
Pick ANY 15 LJ users on your friends list. Without revealing their names, say something about (or to) each one of them. Never reveal who is what.

1. you get on my nerves, but i still love you. BBF sexy.

. 2. youre really stupid, i used to like you but now i dont.

. 3. your entrys are so annoying

. 4. youre so creepy. stop talking to me. everyone hates you.

5. why dont you EVER UPDATE. i rember we used to be BEST FRIENDS.

6. god damn, youre the hottest person in the school.you dont know what your hottness possesses..

7. i wish we could hangout, youre awesome.

8.stop yelling at me for your friends prbolems.. if they want to talk to me, let them, god damn, its soo naoying

9, youre a slut, and you look like an animal.

10. youre so pretty, you shouldnt be sad. yoiure seriously perfect.

11. ACT A FOO.. thats all i have to say. oh yeah, and we need to hangout outside of school sometime..and steal shit together.

12. i hate your laugh, its so annoying

13. weed head.

sing sing sing i sing my song, and you you you you ,you sing along.

Thu, 29 Apr 2004 19:06:14 GMT

Why do I find myself opening the next chapter of my life,
When the last has just begun?
Why do I fight against the opposing force,
When it's a battle I've already won?
Who says that lies are horrible,
When we know that the truth sheds tears?
Why do we love to act courageous,
But are constantly tangled in fears?
What happened to vulnerability?
Is innocence lost day by day?
Or have we all just become so manipulated
The once outrageous things are okay?
How many times do we have to see people make the same mistakes
Before we can learn for ourselves they're wrong?
Why do we make the happiest memories we have so short,
But the terrible ones so long?
Why do we love to hate each other
Would life be so boring if everyone was nice?
Why is it easier to take money from your mom,
But so much harder to take advice?
Am I the only one who finds myself being selfish at times
Or just the only one willing to admit.
Why do people put so much passion into something
But when the smallest struggle comes they quit?
Where does jealousy come from,
The epitome of envy and greed?
Why do we have to have all our wants,
And forget about all of our needs?
Where does are conscience go,
When were doing something we know is bad.
Are we fighting what we know is right
Or is this a lesson we've already had.
What is worse, embarrassment or shame?
Or do they both go hand in hand?
Why do we look down on others,
But then respect for ourselves we demand.
With all the why's where's who's and if's in the world
There's a million questions a person could convey…
but in the end ask yourself, are you afraid to answer,
or ashamed of what you'll say...

Post a memory of me in the comments. It can be anything you want.
Then post this in your journal, and see what people remember of you.

<33
-my house is going to blow up.

well shes walking, through the clouds.

Thu, 29 Apr 2004 17:52:22 GMT

im so happy lately.i love it.
today was awesome.i cant wait 'til this weekend.
yeah, im going to go to the movies by myself and see mean girls. aha andmy papa is coming&my moms boyfriend and stuff. im Excited. tomarrow our normal lunch.. and we dont have 1st hour.. and our classes are 70 minutes.. instead of 90 im so glad.<33

Dont Look Back

Cold rain running down the front of my shirt
I'm flat on my back wheels in the dirt
Angel makes her face up out on baker Street
She's straddlin; the shifter in my front seat
There's nothing to lose
It's a set-up (heartbreak)
The deck's stacked
So put your foot to the floor
And darling don't look back

Well making night tracks through the blazing rain
Blow them pistons, work (move) in the fast lane
White line burning, pockets full of cash
Angel writes her name in lipstick on my dash
There's nothing to lose
It's a set-up (except a heartbreak) (just a bad break)
The deck's stacked (baby we're back)
Tonight we'll blow off the doors (Put your foot to the floor)
And honey we won't look back (And darling don't look back)

We held it in our hearts in the pouring rain
We made it through the heart of a hurricane
We tore it apart and put it together again

We'll wash out sins, girl down in the sea
Angel won't you believe in love for me
(Come on meet me tonight darlin' out in the street)
We'll move with the city in the dark
You got to walk it talk it in your heart

There's nothin' to lose
It's a set-up (just a heartache)
The deck's stacked
So put your foot to the floor (and) darling
Tonight we'll blow out (off) the doors darling (baby)
Put your foot to the floor (we're gonna even the score)
And darling don't look back (honey we won't look back)
Don't look back
Ah, baby, don't look back

By:Bruce Springsteen

the sky fell down on me.

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 23:34:03 GMT

...damn, damn.

Wed, 28 Apr 2004 19:54:12 GMT

god damn it.i feel really stupid.

Cut My Hair

Why should I care
If I have to cut my hair?
I've got to move with the fashions
Or be outcast.
I know I should fight
But my old man he's really alright,
And I'm still living at home
Even though it won't last.

Zoot suit, white jacket with side vents
Five inches long.
I'm out on the street again
And I'm leaping along.
I'm dressed right for a beach fight,
But I just can't explain
Why that uncertain feeling is still
Here in my brain.

The kids at school
Have parents that seem so cool.
And though I don't want to hurt them
Mine want me their way.
I clean my room and my shoes
But my mother found a box of blues,
And there doesn't seem much hope
They'll let me stay.

Zoot suit, [etc.]

Why do I have to be different to them?
Just to earn the respect of a dance hall friend,
We have the same old row, again and again.
Why do I have to move with a crowd
Of kids that hardly notice I'm around,
I have to work myself to death just to fit in.

I'm coming down
Got home on the very first train from town.
My dad just left for work
He wasn't talking.
It's all a game,
'Cos inside I'm just the same,
My fried egg makes me sick
First thing in the morning.

By: The who

jiimi hendrix<33

Mon, 26 Apr 2004 18:56:18 GMT

today was excellent..

thats it:) hope you enjoyed :)

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 21:06:43 GMT

Behind Blue Eyes..

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

No one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you

No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

When my fist clenches, crack it open
Before I use it and lose my cool
When I smile, tell me some bad news
Before I laugh and act like a fool

If I swallow anything evil
Put your finger down my throat
If I shiver, please give me a blanket
Keep me warm, let me wear your coat

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

By:The Who.

♥

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 03:34:23 GMT

Cadillac pimpin.

<---- hahahahahhaha

<-- Nice Middle Finger.......

mm..

Thu, 22 Apr 2004 20:20:02 GMT

they need for you to be everything that.. they cant be themselves..yeah.whatever.

happy birthday diana.:)

oh well.

Mon, 19 Apr 2004 00:25:39 GMT

wow i went biking 4 miles at this park in holly with my mom. her boyfriend. katie g. my brother. and his son. uh im never doing that again.i almost fucking died because i have breathing problems ahhaah. right now im watching something on collimbine. its so fucked up. that was the gayest break ever. my fucking room is awesome. and i love my mom for helping me. the break went over veryy fast. even though i did nothing.. mm yeah well im going to try to be nicer to everyone because my dad had a fucking like long ass talk about how im so mean to people.. well yeah i realized i have no life at all. and i need to do something with my life. all i do is push everyone away..
oh yeah. its almost april 20th. you know what happend on april 20th.

♥

Fri, 16 Apr 2004 22:16:45 GMT

ahhh yess finally painted my room!!
its sweet as hell.

Fri, 16 Apr 2004 16:35:46 GMT

yeah i dont fucking care anymore.. about anyone. or anything.. so
i hope i bug the shit out of everyone. i hope everyone hates me . but im not fake so fuck you.

ahaha

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 16:58:53 GMT

-i cant wait til saturday
this break has sucked so far :(
♥

wow, this time you cant fake it hard enough to please anyone at alll.

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 01:16:58 GMT

cant wait til saturday.
everything that keeps me together is falling apart

♥

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 01:03:02 GMT

!!!!

<-- GAY!

gay

Mon, 12 Apr 2004 17:03:25 GMT

i had a fucking nightmare last night.
i bet you it will come true..
♥

see what i get for being nice ?

Mon, 12 Apr 2004 00:28:41 GMT

when you have a fat friend, there are no sesaws.

:x: name = jessica
:x: piercing = 7
:x: tattoos = 0
:x: height= 5"3
:x: shoe size = 9.5
:x: hair color = dark brown
:x: siblings = alex. jules

LAST...
:x: movie you rented = gothika &honey.
:x: movie you bought = coyote ugly
:x: song you listened to = dashboard confessionals- ghost of a good thing
:x: song that was stuck in your head = ^^
:x: cd you bought = its been a while
:x: cd you listened to = the eminem show
:x: person you've called = uh like 2 or three weeks ago, someone
:x: person that called you = my dad.
:x: tv show you've watched = stand up comedy central
:x: person you were thinking of = uh, katie

DO...
:x: you have a crush on someone = no.
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = hell yea
:x: you think about suicide = yes
:x: others find you attractive = not ever
:x: you want more piercings = yeah
:x: you like cleaning = when im angry. or bored. or someones coming over.
:x: you like roller coasters = yes
:x: you write in print or cursive = print.

FOR OR AGAINST...
:x: long distance relationships= against
:x: using someone = against
:x: suicide = its the easy way out-
:x: killing people = depends.. lol
:x: teenage smoking = against
:x: driving drunk = against
:x: gay/lesbian relationships = againts
:x: soaps= against.there so freakin stupid

HAVE YOU...
:x: ever cried over a girl= yeah
:x: ever cried over a boy = yep
:x: ever lied to someone = yeah my dad,
:x: ever been in a fist fight = yea haha
:x: ever been arrested = no

WHAT...
:x: shampoo do you use = herbal essense
:x: shoes do you wear = converse
:x: are you scared of = closed spaces & lady bugs & needles

NUMBER...
:x: of times I have been in love? never
:x: of times I have had my heart broken? = yeah okya none
:x: of hearts I have broken? = yeah right,
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = maybee 1 2, never know these days.
:x: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?= like once:x: of scars on my body? = i dunno. i dont count em
:x: of things in my past that I regret? = like one thing.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
:x: pretty - NO
:x: funny - NO
:x: hot - NO
:x: friendly - NO
:x: amusing - NO
:x: ugly - yeah
:x: caring - NO

favorite:
5 letter word: b i t c h
actor/actress: DAVE CHAPELLE uh mandy moore
Candy: gummi bears
Cartoon: simpsons, or family guy
Cereal: pops
Chewing gum: winter fresh, or extra polar ice
Color(s): teal, pink
Color nail polish: pink
Day of week: tuesday or wednesday
Least favorite day: monday or sundays Flower: not sure
Jell-o flavor: strawberry or raspberry
Jewelry: necklace
Special skills/talent: playing guitar
Summer/Winter: summer
Trampolines or swimming pools: trampolines

|| Person who last.. ||

Slept in your bed:me
Saw you cry: uh nobody, i dont cry in front of people. ever
Made you cry: kalie
You went to the movies with: katie grayburn
Yelled at you: my dad i guess
Sent you an email: livejournal

|| Have you ever.. ||

Said "I love you" and meant it?: yeah
Gone out in public in your pajamas: yeah
Kept a secret from everyone: yeah all the time.
Cried during a movie: yeah
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: .....gay
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: no
Been on stage: yeah
Been to New York: yeah
Been to California: no
Hawaii: no
China: no
Canada: no
Europe: no
Asia: no
South America: no
Australia: no
Wished you were the opposite sex: noooo
What time is it now?: 9:16 pm
Apples or bananas?: neither
Blue or red?: blue
Wal-Mart or target?: walmartt
Spring or Fall?: spring
what are you going to do after you finish this?: go shoot myself in the face
What was the last meal you ate?: macaroni.
High school or college?: highschool
Are you bored?: extremely
Last noise you heard?: the tv
Last smell you sniffed?: axjuvksenmf
Last time you went out of state/province?: in december

|| Friendship/Love ||

Do you believe in love at first sight?: nooo
Do you want children one day & if so, how many?:
no , i dont want any
Most important thing to you in a friendship is: trust
|| Other Info ||

Criminal record?: ...
Do you speak any other languages?: SI
Last book you read: </b> the torn skirt </b>
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom?: my guitar
Thing you dislike about yourself the most: my nose. & my lips & my personality
Worst feeling in the world: being hurt in any way
Who you love: my mom , shes seriously the only one who cares.

|| You ||

Nickname(s): BOJANGLES .
How old do you look?: 14?
How old do you act?: 14?
Glasses/Contacts: no
Do you have any pets?: NO
You get embarrassed: hardly ever, only when i trip on the main stairs at school
What makes you happy?: when i eat
What upsets you?: when people lie just to hurt my feelings.

eh

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 14:56:25 GMT

this break has been lame.
i had a dream i killed myself at school.
happy easter though
♥

THIS IS DEDICATED TO MY LOVERS.

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 04:30:03 GMT

i was at the mall all day, i love getting new clothes. :)
yeah, the whole mean thing is getting OLD.& getting me nowhere but with no friends, or people that are just like me.
so fuck it-
yeah so uh,\HAPPY EASTER. I GUESS.
♥

its so hard not to judge people.

Sat, 10 Apr 2004 16:30:53 GMT

i really should start to care more.im sick of being mean to people.

so straight, so candid, so thoughtful, so gracious, so sound, so even-handed Dont be so damn being and dont waste my fucking time.
♥

Fri, 09 Apr 2004 21:17:00 GMT

Quit acting so friendly.Dont nod dont laugh all nicely.
Dont think you'll up-end me.Dont sigh,dont sip your iced-tea.
And dont say, "Its been a while."
And dont flash that stupid smile Dont ask me how Ive been. Dont think Ive forgotten, you never liked that necklace. So cordial, so rotten... kiss, kiss, lets meet for breakfast,
Dont show up so on-time and dont act like your so kind Dont ask me how Ive been. Dont sit there and play just so frank, so straight, so candid, so thoughtful, so gracious, so sound, so even-handed Dont be so damn being and dont waste my fucking time. Dont ask me how Ive been.
because i finally got my head on straight.
ill be doing everyone a favor anyways-
my dad just gave me 40bucks im going to goblow it
on some clothes or something.yeah

♥

im in a deeper mess.

Wed, 07 Apr 2004 18:51:47 GMT

today was extremely extremely gay
& wish my dad wasnt home for break-hes so annoying. :(
something needs to change- hm.
♥

Mon, 05 Apr 2004 18:36:58 GMT

i hate having so much on your mind you cant sleep.
this has been the worst week
iused to LOVE school, now i hate it.. bye